Stop being decent.
Not forever. Only for the length of these pages.
There are things you think and never say. The envy. The contempt. The wish to watch someone fall. Everyone has them. You are not sick.
You have wished someone harm. You have never said it aloud.
Here it is allowed. Write the worst thing you have ever thought. Write who you hate. Write who you envy. Write what you wished on them. Write what you would never say to a friend, a lover, or a god. Do not soften it. Say it exactly as it is.
No one will read it. A thought set down is not a deed. It is the deed you never had to commit.
When you are finished, destroy it.
A place to write the thing you would never say out loud, and then destroy it.
Nothing you type here is saved, sent or read. It stays on your screen until you press Destroy, or until you close the page.
It is based on a study from Nagoya University, and on はきだし皿 (hakidashisara), a practice at a shrine near Nagoya where people breathe what they are carrying into a small plate and then break it.
This is not therapy and does not replace it. If you are in danger of hurting yourself or someone else, call or text 988.
In 2024, two researchers at Nagoya University, Yuta Kanaya and Nobuyuki Kawai, published a study in the journal Scientific Reports. They asked what happens to anger when the paper it was written on is destroyed.
In two experiments, people were insulted and then wrote about what had upset them. Some threw the paper away or put it through a shredder. Others kept it.
Anger rose in everyone. In the people who got rid of the paper, it fell back to where it began. In the people who kept it, it stayed higher.
The authors suggest that getting rid of the paper may, in a symbolic way, get rid of the anger itself. They connect it to はきだし皿, a tradition at a shrine near Nagoya.
It is an early finding, not a cure. The samples were small, the effect was measured soon afterward, and only paper was tested. Writing on a screen was not.
Kanaya, Y., & Kawai, N. (2024). Anger is eliminated with the disposal of a paper written because of provocation. Scientific Reports, 14. doi.org/10.1038/s41598-024-57916-z
はきだし皿, hakidashisara. Hakidashi means purging or spitting out, and sara means plate.
Hiyoshi Shrine (清洲山王宮 日吉神社) in Kiyosu, Aichi Prefecture, a city next to Nagoya.
Visitors buy a small plate at the shrine office. A recent local report gives the price as 300 yen. They focus on what they want to let go of, blow on the plate to put it inside, and break it at the purification area (清祓所) of the shrine grounds. The shrine presents the area as a place for clearing attachments and lingering feelings.
A summary of the Nagoya University study describes hakidashisara as an annual festival at the shrine, where participants smash small discs that represent things that make them angry. According to that summary, the researchers suggest the tradition may explain the relief people report afterward. Sources describe the objects slightly differently, as plates in local reports and discs in the study summary.
Nagoya Pages has no connection to the shrine. It takes the shape of the practice, saying something into an object and then destroying the object, and applies it to a page.
ScienceDaily summary of the study
Local report on the shrine (Japanese)
Hiyoshi Shrine, hakidashi page (Japanese)